LOVE IS POISON

Strange things are happening today. And I'm not talking about my submission for the pornathon this week, though, well, that's strange too. My muse derailed me into writing something totally different from what I had planned, which meant it came out all rambly and incoherent, and also 800 words so I had to cut 80 and I hate having to do cuts so I just kinda deleted paragraphs at random. Also when I realized I was at 700 words I hastily hurried to conclude but I'd barely written any porn, so. Basically, I wrote pornless porn. IDK IDK.

Also I found myself in my wips too derpworthy to live folder and found a complete fic. For Ace Attorney. I'm not even in the fandom any more. I think I wrote it for the kink meme over a year ago and then didn't post it because it went in a different way from the prompt. Or because I was ashamed of the porn. WHICH IDK SELF IT'S A KINK MEME. Whatever, I no longer have shame and I need the wordcount for fiumidiparole so I'm doing some quick editing and posting.

But the point of this post is another. I might or might not have accidentally signed up for an X-Men Big Bang. (Hint: I did.)
Nobody commented on my ~totally awesome idea for an AU but I'm writing it anyway, haha. Ha. OH GOD WHAT AM I DOING. YOU SHOULD ALL JOIN AND SUPPORT ME BECAUSE I FEEL MY SANITY SLOWLY SLIPPING AWAY ALREADY AND I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE IN THIS.
xmenbigbang. There should probably be a pretty banner but I can't find it and I'm sleepy and lol whatever, I can pimp properly later.

What else did I forget about? There's the Tourney of the Hand over at westerosorting and I still haven't recovered from Hogsmeade, I'm all excited about Pottermore even though we know next to nothing about it yet, and I fell in love with One Cell In The Sea. It's probably the only album I've ever listened to in order, without skipping tracks, multiple times. Hearts in my eyes. ♥

Back to editing shameful porn now.

Hi new friends from the Kurt/Blaine friending meme! Or possibly friend, there were lots of comments but few actual friend requests. Damn social awkwardness extending to the internet too. Anyway.

I finished S1 of the Vampire Diaries tonight and I have a few (non-spoilery) things to say.
First, how can Damon be so awesome?
Second, I don't know why but I read some spoilers that turned out to be actually wrong. Derp derp. Well, it helped with the suspense I guess.
Third, I think I have a crush on Damon. My sister might too. At the very least she agrees he's awesome. And my brother agrees (on the awesome, not on the crush part, or at least so I think; I'm still doing the bi-until-otherwise-proved thing). In short, when we agree on something, it means it's really really awesome.
Fourth, I felt sad for Damon in this ep, whenever he tries to to something nice life screws him no Kurt damn you it's not fair if your songs come up in my playlist and make me emo and holy cliffhanger Batman, I'm glad I can start on S2 straight away.
Fifth, Stefan's not as boring as I was afraid at first but he's still nobody compared to Damon.
Sixth, I ran out of things to say that aren't related to Damon.
Seventh, I ship Damon/mostly anyone. Seriously. Alaric, Elena, Sheriff Forbes, Stefan, anyone who can get him to drop his shirt.

Progress on my epic to-do list is going slow but steady. My thesis, which is not on there but is nevertheless a constant boring presence in my life, is kinda sorta moving forward too. And I got the 2 Layton ficlets out of the way.
I was going to write some Inception, only my first attempt sucked so much I don't think it'll ever get published. And I usually post all kinds of crap as long as it's complete, but this really sucks. You know when you have an idea and think "oooh, this is gonna be awesome!" and then it turns out to be a bitch to write and you hate the end result? Yeah, that.
So I moved to my merry_merthur prompt (did I mention that I hate portmanteau names already?) since I finally figured out what to write, got an outline and everything.

I was going to start writing it this afternoon but then I got this idea for a steampunk original story and I was all "oooh, this is gonna be awesome!" again... yeah, I never learn from my mistakes. But this time I had all the scenes playing out in my mind one by one until I went from "it would be cool to have a duel on top of a zeppelin" to something with a beginning and a middle part and characters, and then I thought of an ending scene which is the hardest part for me, and then I thought up the backstories of the minor characters and then I just had to at least outline it. The outline alone was 750 words, that's more than my usual ficlets. This thing is getting written. And I'm kinda... happy about it, I haven't written anything original in years because I kept going back to my one original plot and that's an epic saga with a dozen characters and plots that I'll never be able to write in one lifetime. But now I have my plot, which is totally an excuse for the two leads to get together with steampunk!London in the background, and it's still better than nothing and I'm gonna stop rambling and go write this.

My plans to write write write keep getting thwarted. Yesterday I missed my alarm, got up at 11am when my neighbours had a row that was even louder than usual, turned on my computer and ended up researching gay marriage law in the US. Then my muse deserted me and I ended up watching a couple of Castle episodes.

Then I had to leave for this Christmas dinner, which was... nice, I suppose, but not as memorable as the others (for better or worse). I was stuck at the far end of my group of friends, the two girls in front of me spent the evening locked in conversation with each other and I didn't know the girl next to me. Then I found out she was an Erasmus student from Germany and she clearly didn't know many people, so I thought it'd be nice to talk with her a bit. Except... I suck at making casual conversation with strangers. I spent most of the dinner staring at the ceiling and thinking of a good conversation opener. In the end I did manage to strike a conversation with her and we talked quite a lot, and after dinner was over we got up so I could talk to some people I hadn't seen in ages. But ugh, the awkwardness at the beginning.

Also, about awkwardness. While we were walking back (I slept at Irene's as usual) I accidentally hummed "Teenage Dream" and didn't know how to justify a sudden Katy Perry obsession. Then this morning I found out she watches Glee too. Which... unexpected, but cool.
On the train ride back I managed to write part of my thegameison_sh entry and was about to finish it after I caught up with my flist... but then...

THE CLIP OF BABY IT'S COLD OUTSIDE FROM 2X10 APPEARED AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO STOP SQUEEING EVER SINCE. SERIOUSLY, I CAN'T EVEN STOP SMILING. I'VE WATCHED IT LIKE 4 TIMES ALREADY AND IT MAKES ME SO RIDICULOUSLY HAPPY, JUST... HEE. BOYS. FLAIL. CUTENESS. PANDAS. POINSETTIAS. SENSE. AM I MAKING ANY. WHO CARES. LOOPING IT ONCE MORE.

First things first, bask in the awesomeness that's the newest Thrones trailer. One minute long and a bunch of new footage, though of course the most interesting bits are the ones that flash past in a split second. And there should be a 15-minutes "behind the scenes" special next week that I'm really looking forward to.



It's actually happening. Spring 2011. SPRING 2011.



( My new to-do list. )

Of course there's also the song meme that never ends. Since last time I posted about it I wrote a couple more ficlets:
Jean Tannen (Gentleman Bastard) - Give Us A Little Love for amaranthine3
Castiel (SPN) - I won't say I'm in love for batgurl88

And the more attentive of you might have noticed that I took the Merlin/Inception crossover off the list. That's because frantic_allonsy wrote it already. So... yeah. Not the very same plot I'd have written, but it's not as if I'd have ever gotten around to writing it. And they did. And it was epic.
So yeah. Go read it.

Also if you could stop by camelot_fics and vote for our first challenge, there's a lot of cute entries and they're all short so it shouldn't take you much. I could use some more votes.

GAIZ! GAIZ! MORE PROMO PHOTOS FROM MERLIN 3X13 HAVE SURFACED AND YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS!

THERE'S ALSO ONE WITH THE KNIGHTS + MERLIN, FOR THOSE OF US WHO'VE BEEN WONDERING WHERE HE WAS!

( CLICK CLICK CLICK! )


Also I've started watching The Vampire Diaries in the hope it'll distract me from the sad, sad lack of Glee until next week.
So far it's... meh. Apart from Damon, who saved two episodes just by showing up and trolling everyone else. And Edward Stefan needs to stop frowning at the world and try some other expression. He might want to look dark and broody, but I think he's just constipated. Also I can't watch him make that face any more without laughing, and since he does that face all the time... yeah, I laugh in all of his scenes.
But even tropes says that it gets better after episode 4 or 5, so I'll go watch the next episode now.

THERE WAS ALSO SOMETHING ELSE I NEEDED TO SAY BUT I'VE BEEN HOPELESSLY DISTRACTED. FFFFFFF BOYS.

Dear Yulegoat,

( Yes, I'm doing Yuletide this year! )

I'll probably be editing this until signups close (and I've edited it twice already), but I think that's all. Once again: THANK YOU! ♥

Ren

First things first, this is so much relevant to my interests, it's ridiculous. My sister now hates me because I keep singing along to Lady Gaga, but it's okay. Even she had to admit that it was an awesome video.

Speaking of awesome, you know what's awesome? Castle. And by Castle I mean Beckett, because seriously. I might have a sliiight crush on Beckett. Okay, huge crush. And new OTP. I love this series, I'm so glad I decided I needed a police procedural in my life. I'm watching a lot of new shows lately since I still can't find my muse.

And we're almost caught up with both Doctor Who and Torchwood, and it depresses me to no end. I think I'll write an epic Torchwood AU starting from 2x13, because my canon is better than their canon. And has a pterodactyl. And I'm delusional. And I think whenever I get around to watching Children of Earth it's going to kill me.

Anyway, it's Saturday so here's another week's worth of recs from merlin_muses.

Serendipitous * Arthur/Merlin * PG-13 * 13,562 words
Loosely based on the movie Serendipity. If you've watched it, great! If you haven't, this fic is still adorable!
Arthur and Merlin meet for the first time just before Christmas in NYC. It's love at first sight (or almost), but Fate conspires to keep them apart. Will they be able to meet again before Arthur marries someone else? (Hint: the movie's a comedy so obviously there's a happy end.)
Leon is the best supporting character ever. Gwen is lovely and makes tea. And, in the end, it's all Morgana's fault.

Party of Four * Merlin/Morgana, Arthur/Gwen, slight Gwen/Morgana * NC-17 * 2,252 words
Proof can I can recommend things other than Arthur/Merlin. If there were more fics like this one, I think I'd be a much bigger Merlin/Morgana shipper. I didn't even mind the Arthur/Gwen bits, because it fit with the story. This is mostly PWP but their characters are just perfect.
Modern AU, starts with a drinking game. There's smut, some femslash, exhibitionism, and Arthur dares Morgana to masturbate in front of the others,. If I haven't squicked you away yet, this fic deserves a read.

All Things Are Ours * Arthur/Merlin * PG-13 * 24,436 words
Modern AU set in Carmarthen, which according to the legends was Merlin's birthplace. Arthur is Merlin's hot new boss, Merlin sometimes insults him in Welsh but Arthur doesn't understand, and they gaze longingly at each other for the best part of the fic before finally getting together.
It's probably better than my summary makes it sound and there are a lot of other secondary characters around, though they're sadly underdeveloped. There are some points where this fic is very much tell, don't show.

It's cold and damp and I've got a hell of a cold and probably a slight fever too, and I'm marathoning the first series of The Big Bang Theory and I'm laughing so much my throat hurts. A lot. But it was hurting already because of the cold so it's okay.
At least now I get why the guys in my year are so obsessed with it. Well, guys and girls. And one girl anyway. A subset of the guys in my year. Which includes at least one guy and at least one girl. Scary part is, we actually talk like that. Er.

Before getting sucked into this I also watched Merlin 3x06 and it was... okay, I suppose. Not memorable. I liked Elaine, though I don't get why she's the daughter of a lord and gets called princess while Vivian was the daughter of a king and was called lady. It makes no sense at all. Oh, and Vivian was prettier by far, but that's obvious.

I also feel compelled to add that I'm a mathematician, not a physicist. Or at least I'd be if I got my degree, which is not going to happen until I pass the damn physics exam, which might explain part of my resentment towards physicists. Though obviously mathematicians are superior to physicists. Everyone says so. Apart from the physicists, but they're just delusional. And the engineers probably disagree but their opinion doesn't amount to anything. And there's probably a lot of people who don't give a damn. But if you ask me, mathematicians are better.

So yesterday I stayed up until past 4am. The Den of Iniquity does this to me. Also gives me the tendency to post in capslock and talk about robot heads. Seriously, Stonehenge Apocalypse wins some special prize as most ludicrous catastrophic film ever. (Title previously held by some film in which the Earth was about to be destroyed by microwaves.) At least now I have a quote in the header instead of filler text.

I also watched the Dark Knight finally. But meh. The Joker was creepy, which was good, but he was also creepy, so he scared the crap out of me. So during the best scenes I was too chicken to watch the screen.
Still want to re-watch Inception. My parents saw it last night too, but mum didn't really understood about limbo. She missed just why the ending was a mind-screw. She said she was happy it ended so well! (To which, me and my siblings explained all the different interpretations and she said derp derp.)



Merlin 3x05

( Baww, Colin! )



Day 23 - A crazy love triangle/quadrilateral that worked out great?

( Sam/Dean/Castiel/Gabriel. SPN spoilers. )



Day 24 - A crazy love triangle/quadrilateral that worked out badly?

( Arthur/Merlin/Morgana. Merlin spoilers. )

I'm officially going to ignore the 30 days meme until I'm done with my Merlin/Arthur fic for merlin_muses. I passed 5,000 words yesterday, not counting whatever I have on notebooks and haven't typed yet) and this monster isn't anything close to done. At least I got an extension until the 8th, I hope it'll be enough. So much for "writing a ficlet or two in the summer". At least I have a beta and most of what I've written has already been checked so I won't have to do last-minute mad dashes or anything. Or so I hope.

By the way, I don't remember who asked me about my Sherlock fic for thegameison_sh: voting is done and I've posted it in my comm. I'm excited for this month's theme though of course there will be no writing anything but the monster for the next week.
I'm also in half a mind to start something like this for Merlin -- monthly ficlet writing challenge. audiopineapple brought it up yesterday at 1am and by 2am I was set on doing it. It sounds like something I might regret, but... Merlin! fanfic! squee! Thus since nobody else is doing it I might as well.

Though I forgot I was invited to a friend's friend's grad party Saturday night, which means sleeping out and possibly getting drunk. This is so not conductive to fanfic. Nor were the couple of visits to the doctor in the last few days. I swear, everything is conspiring against me. But I'm quite happy about this fic, even if I'll have to ask for another extension to get it done. I don't want to rush it since I'm actually writing a long story that I like, and it's not for the sake of wordpadding like during NaNo.

Okay, lunchtime and then time to get a couple more scenes down.



ETA; I lied and went to change my journal layout instead. After 8 months I think the change was overdue. Yay rainbow vomit! On my to-do list: make a header, find a background, fix italic/bold/underline/strikethrough text, remove icons next to lj usernames, fill empty space in top bar, fix tag cloud.