I cannot with presents

[renrenren3]

I like presents, generally. I don't like getting presents for people. I can't wait until I'm old enough that I can give people money in an envelope and tell them to buy something they like. My biggest fear is that some friend will get me a present and force me to reciprocate. Birthdays are bad, but Christmas is the worst because it's all together, A TON OF PRESENTS ALL TOGETHER JFC HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO COPE. So I usually team up with my siblings and we get the presents for our parents, etc, together, this way we only need one brainwave. But we didn't know what to get for each other, so I was about to suggest let's not get each other presents this year, too much of a hassle, when my sister comes up all happy and tells me that she and my brother finally found presents for me. WEEPING. PANICKING. DENIAL. So I just spent the afternoon trying to find presents for them and I think I did it? I did not find the game my brother wanted bc it went out of print like ten years ago or smth so I got him a nerdy cookbook. Then weeping again because I found the very same thing that my sister wanted and couldn't find anywhere, the same thing I told her last week it was impossible to find. Now I just have to hope that nothing gets ~lost~ in the mail.

Oh and the other presents aren't even wrapped yet because nobody can be arsed. So much holiday spirit in the air in this house.

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[scatteredintime.livejournal.com]

Oh darlinggggg, I feel you.

Lemme copy from this entry I wrote yesterday but made private because it was too emo.

I don't like the pressure of getting everyone gifts and I feel bad that I've failed at it so much this year. I don't really have anything for my dad because he has no interests. I got my mother an ironing board which has been in use already and she did say thank you but ultimately she hates it because it's not the way she thought it would be (she picked it though). The one person I know I can make happy is my brother because I got him what he wanted, so that's good. I hope Jule will like hers. I didn't get anything for Laura which just sucks because wow, can I be a shittier friend? I haven't found anything for Katie yet either because I just don't know. I don't like giving gifts. I like giving people something, yes, but I just really hate having to be creative and think of something. Gifts are always sort of like you have to prove that you know a person and idk. I like giving people something but I don't like figuring that something out.

And lol. Now. I don't have presents? And obvs it's present time tomorrow evening so lol, awesome. I have what bro wanted, right, but I feel like I'm not going to appreciate my dad at all and my mum already got hers so she's gonna be all ~nothing in mah hands~ too, and ugh. I just really hate it. I like giving people something they can enjoy (money... so they can get whatever they want) or working off a wishlist on Amazon, because hey, they want those things, so I can give them something that they want, but being all ~wise~ and creative and all-knowing sucks and I hate the pressure of having to give good gifts.

[renrenren3]

Ugh yes. This. I'm just glad my family already told me that their presents are mostly going to be late too, so I won't feel the awkward of not physically give them anything until next week, but still this kind of pressure sucks. I just, idk, I like it when people like my presents but I suck at actually picking presents that people will like, and even if they say they do I worry they're lying not to hurt my feelings, and in the end it's just so nerve-wracking. How do I adult?

[scatteredintime.livejournal.com]

Ugh, same. I just don't know how to give thoughtful gifts. And when I pick something without knowing what they really want, I just know it's going to disappoint them (I mean, hey, it disappointed me when I got an electric toothbrush for Christmas once, so chances are that there are things they'd be disappointed about too) or not going to be good enough or whatever. I just don't like that. I like making them happy, yeah, but it drives me batty having to come up with things and ugh. Presents, I hate them, why can't I just give people money, gdi.