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After a week I finally got an answer from my thesis advisor. More or less he said, "okay, carry on with what you've been doing". What I've been doing is flailing around because I have no guidelines. I tried asking if I should add figures or examples or anything concrete, but nothing. FFS IS IT SO HARD TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO??

Also I still have one exam left.

Also I'm stressed.

Also FML.


I can't even be happy that Glee is on tonight because it means time is passing. Likewise with Game of Thrones airing in five weeks. I can't count down to April 17 when I have to count down to the deadline for my thesis or my last exam.
Me and my sister also talked my brother into watching Glee. I'm not sure it worked since he was also playing a game while watching the Pilot. But it's kind of therapeutic for me. I can turn off my brain and don't even have to worry about the plot.
Last night I watched some more Misfits. Got up to the part when Simon is a BAMF.


Okay, I calmed down and have a battle plan. For now I'm gonna study some more cryptography. I read 50 pages this morning and have "just" 500 more. Then this afternoon I'm going to blatantly copy some formulas from the reference book and try to crank out the next chapter as quickly as possible. If everything I do is "okay" regardless of the effort I put into it, there's no point agonizing over every single paragraph. I'll have time later to fix whatever sucks.
renrenren3: (Merlin * Lady Vivian)

Also, Glee was awesome.

I'm going to make some kind of spam post later on to celebrate. So happy, guys, I don't even.
renrenren3: (Glee * epic fail)
I'm so sorry to everyone on [ profile] merlin_land's RP for being MIA but I'm just not up to it this week. I know, my timing sucks. What sucks even more is being ill in the few days before my big exams, I kept freaking out and drinking tea and taking medicines in the hope it'd go away in time for today. (Hint: it didn't.)

I did pass the exam, somehow. I just can't even feel relieved about it because I feel so woozy. Talking for 30 minutes was a pain. Now I communicate using gestures and my dry-erase whiteboard. At least tomorrow I can sleep in, hopefully it'll get better.

Is Monday's livewatch still on? I'm trying to keep up with my flist but if your entry is longer than a paragraph I'm probably skipping parts of it because reading too much is difficult.
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My exam was moved to next Friday which is crazy and means next week I'll probably have to work on my thesis too since I can't put everything on hold until the exam if it keeps being postponed like this. I like the professor who holds the course now, he was very nice when he showed me my written test. Most of us hadn't answered part of a question because when we took that course two years ago it wasn't covered in the program and when we explained he was very apologetic about it. And both him and his colleague were very generous and passed this girl even though her exam was reeeally pitiful, because it was her last exam and she needs to graduate next month. And he's even got health troubles. But it really makes it hard on us that he's so unreliable and the exam dates get pushed around a lot. :|

In other news...
Livewatch. Monday. 8pm GMT. Jumper.
Pat ([ profile] imyourheroine) is hosting this time and I'll just copy-paste what she wrote in her journal:
To my new friends, the movie spam happens every monday night at 20:00 GMT. Someone hosts it every week in their journal. The host chooses a movie and we all watch it together and spam in the journal for live reactions. It's so much fun.
Actually she made a poll with 4 movies but Jumper is winning with a good margin so I think that's what we'll watch.
renrenren3: (Glee * epic fail)
Some weeks ago I ran into this guy who played clarinet with me in middle school and I hadn't seen him in a while so we said hi and I'd have asked him to get a coffee with me and catch up if it wasn't that he was late, I was late and we were in the middle of nowhere. (Thanks, campus comfortably located outside of civilization.) Then yesterday he sent me a message on Facebook asking how is my thesis going and we should meet up sometimes to catch up. And the only reason I'm bringing this up at all is because this is the closest I've gotten to a date in the past year. Which, needless to say, is sad. I need to meet new people, except I hate meeting new people.

My exam got pushed back to next week due to one of the professors being sick. Again. Poor man, I actually like him a lot. He's a decent person. But it's so difficult to be organized when the dates get moved around so much, and of course the more they push back the date the more I procrastinate.

Also it'd reeeally help if you went here and said "I support Team Point Man". It takes about 30 seconds and makes me happy and if you want I'll write you a drabble in exchange. Spread the word, I'm not beyond whoring myself out for the team. If that came out wrong, it was exactly my intention.
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I just had a mini-heart attack since my exam's result appeared tonight instead of tomorrow morning. I got 19/30 on the written part which is barely a pass but at least I'm moving on to the oral part which is more than can be said for the last three times I tried this exam. My guesstimate of 20/30 wasn't too far off at least. I'm just berating myself because I didn't answer the last question because I ran out of time, while actually I just needed to write a matrix whose elements I already had from another question. And even worse, in another exercise I misread the question and I calculated the fundamental group of the wrong region. Obviously this wrong region was more complex than the ones we study usually because it wasn't connected and I had no idea what to do with regions that aren't connected because it's in the theory but never comes up during exercises so I ended up writing a lot of nonsense and I wouldn't be surprised if I get negative points for that question.

Just let me pass this exam and move on. Please.

ETA: And my dad's meeting with the guy selling the house tonight. He and my uncle want to make sure he's actually moving out in time as he said he would, since he doesn't exactly sound reliable.


Jan. 21st, 2011 07:50 pm
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So my exam was today. The written part went... well, I'd say meh. I've been trying four times to pass it already, it's just that crazy. This time I might have done okay, if I haven't accidentally borked up something. Fingers crossed for the results on Wednesday, meanwhile I'll be studying for the oral part.

Meanwhile I wanted to pimp a couple of land comms that might be relevant to your interests~ [ profile] gleeverse (I'm in Team New Directions) and [ profile] inception_land (Team Badass Point Man ftw, and I'm instructed to say that the other teams are Architect, Extractor and Forger, though you can call them Team Badass too). Obv, refer me if you join so I get pointsss!
I know I keep complaining about being busy and then join new comms and all, but I need some distractions dammit. All my former high school classmates keep uploading photos to facebook that show they're doing nothing but going on holiday or getting drunk and I'm pissed off that I chose such a difficult degree and need fun stuff. So yeah. Join me.
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I'm so goddamn tired right now. But I got more study done today than in all of last week. But I'm so goddamn tired.
renrenren3: (Glee * Kurt & Blaine)

I don't even care about awards but I'd have been willing to give up sleep and pull an all-nighter if I didn't have an exam this week. Also there was no reliable live-stream to be found. But I was so happy to wake up this morning and see all the interviews. TEARS IN MY EYES.

Cheered me up from the crap that is life around exam time, that and my daily episode of Criminal Minds. Oh hey, I think I might be obsessed with yet another show.
Though not as obsessed as with Hawaii Five-0, which HAS A NEW EP AIRING TONIGHT. The wait is over! \o/

Yes they are married. There is evidence of it. Also Kono is badass.

Lastly: LAYDEEZ! IT'S MONDAY NIGHT AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS. If you don't I'm going to tell you anyway.

It's our weekly movie livewatch, and this week it's Ninn's turn and she picked Anastasia. Click the gif to get to her open post and join the squee. It's at 8pm GMT, in a bit less than three hours, but there's the ever-helpful countdown if you're timezone-challenged like moi.
renrenren3: (Merlin * Lady Vivian)
The house thing is still going through. Yesterday we went to see it and it's... well... it's okay I suppose. Honestly, the family who lives there now keeps the place awfully, there's dog droppings in the courtyard and the steps of the stairs are all chipped and there's the world's biggest spiderweb in the cellar. But mum's already planning a list of everything that needs to be fixed and my uncle says it can be done. He's going to help my parents with the contract and all.
I think the place would be nice too, once it's fixed up. It's a very old house and I love that. I've always wanted to live in a place that had an upstairs and a downstairs, don't ask why. Plus my parents really want their own place. I just don't want to think about how long it'll take to make the house inhabitable.
Plus I really don't feel like moving again. I say again though it's been 10 years already, but I remember last time we moved it was between December 1999 and January 2000 and we had New Year's Eve with cardboard boxes in the living room. Eurgh.

Writing my fic for [ profile] merry_merthur. I kind of regret signing up for this one because the minimum wordcount is 2,000 words and the prompts I got are all out of my comfort zone and I'm worried that it might come out forced.
At least I'm taking advantage of the fact that my thesis advisor hasn't replied to my mail yet so I have nothing better to do. Though I think next week I might have to start studying for January's exams. I just wish I knew which exams are in January and which in February. Oh well. When in doubt, write fic.
I just wish I wasn't so easily distracted by tvtropes.
Halfway through. Come on, me, the second half is the fun one. For a given value of fun.

Also I'm in dire need of new songs for my playlist, I'm in that depressing phase in which I play the same 5 songs over and over again and all the others sound just boring.
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So one of my professors is pregnant and we were hoping that her course would be taken over by a colleague next semester. Because she's a complete bitch and likes to make us suffer by making everyone fail her exam. No, seriously, a friend of mine already tried her exam six times and it's the only one she still needs to graduate. So we were all hoping she'd get out of the way and her course would go to someone who'd give us the chance to take the exam both in January and February, like we can for all other courses. And we'd talked with her replacement who seemed fine with it.

Except I just got a mail saying that she put her foot down and said we absolutely can't have more than one date. Shouldn't she be feeling, dunno, motherly and nice and things like that? It's not even as if we like taking her exam multiple times just to waste her time, I'd be more than happy to pass it at my first try and move on. Bitch.

On a definitely happier note, EW published 10 promo photos for A Game of Thrones and I approve of them. Especially this one of Nicolaj Coster-Waldau, who's just fuelling my obsession for pretty men with swords.

Actually all the photos look great, apart from the ones of Kit Harrington. I can't say I'm a fan of his moustache, but maybe he'll grow on me. He does play one of my favourite characters.

I hope there's some hi-res version coming soon. I need to find the fandom, it's finally time to start iconing my heart out.

With all this flailing, I almost forgot: I got my assignment from [ profile] sherlockmas and it looks awesome. Can't wait to start writing. ♥
I miiight need some help with police procedures though, is anyone willing to help a girl?
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So before I started drooling on that picture I was quite happy about life already. Even though my legs hurt so much and I forgot my umbrella so of course it rained, but only in the ten minutes while I was walking to the bus stop.

In short: blah blah blah. )

Of course, photos of Arthur and his knights are far more interesting than my day.
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Fucking Real Life

Okay, I'm stressed over this fucking exam. So. Fucking. Much.
There just isn't enough time. And I've tried but I can't concentrate, and I know why. I'm just sick and tired of studying and I don't care about physics and I just want out. London needs to happen. Or something. I need to go somewhere, have a change of pace some time soon, or I'll lose my mind.


The fucking huge fandom

The only thing keeping me sane lately has been tea and Glee. Seriously. (It kind of rhymes but that wasn't the point.) There are no words to describe just how much I love that show and its cliché-riddled cast. I can just turn off my brain and hum along when I know the songs. And I kind of watched 5 episodes today with my sister because I knew stuff would happen on 1x12, and then 1x13 was Sectionals and we just needed to finish, and we were supposed to watch two episodes on Merlin tonight but after the failboat that was 3x09 (though I liked the punch-to-the-arm scene) I didn't really want to watch 3x10 so switching back to Glee seemed like a good alternative and then 1x15 was the Madonna episode... So yeah.

We're officially marathoning it. Late to the party and everything, but I don't really care. I just think I'll stay clear of the fandom because I don't really care for unnecessary drama and I miiight just have some unpopular opinions about characters/ships. (I also want to adopt Brittany, but that's beside the point.)
And I have a new favourite song. Lately I change favourite songs a bit too often. I have the attention span of a deranged rabbit. Unless it's time to watch another episode of Glee. Honestly I think this show might just have brainwashed me into some kind of mindless minion but I don't really care.


The small fandom that makes me happy

I've signed up for [ profile] yuletide and I've got a feeling nobody else is offering or requesting Locke Lamora. Which makes me sad, because, seriously. The author is cool too, personal problems aside, he's got a livejournal and pulled his main character's name from a Final Fantasy game and said he was okay with fanfiction as long as he didn't have to read any of it. And he's got the full prologue from his first book online here, I don't remember if it's the part about little Locke or the start of their highly entertaining con, but either way it's a good read.

There are conmen and witty remarks and badassness and female pirate captains. There's also much use of the word "fuck" and similar, but if you read my entries I suppose it doesn't bother you too much. Oh, and he tends to create characters and make you love them and then kill them off brutally. But apart from this, the books are cool. So, uhm. Read them? Please?
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Yesterday I found out that my professor, the one I'd been trying to contact unsuccessfully for a week, was totally fine with letting me and my friend take his exam in the date I suggested. Just a tiny problem: the date is November 16th and now I'm stuck with less than one week to prepare this exam instead of two. And I'm really hoping this course is as easy as it seems because otherwise I'm screwed.
Also hoping people will be quick to reply to my Facebook plea asking for questions asked during past exams, because again, I thought I'd have more time for this.

And just as I got another negative answer from somebody who hasn't got those questions on hand right now, I got a call from my cousin. She wants help with maths and possibly needs to ask me something about English too. WHY CAN'T I CLONE MYSELF SO MAYBE I'LL HAVE TIME TO DO EVERYTHING AND STILL SLEEP AND EAT.
I'm kicking myself for this but I told her sure, just wait until after my exam. Which totally doesn't help because I think there will be another exam right after this one so it's not as if my schedule will ever clear up before April.

Then I'll really need to run off to London before I explode.

I'm sorry everyone if I don't keep up with your entries, I'm not used to having so many people on my flist updating daily, plus it's a really crappy moment so yeah. I'm usually better with commenting. :/
renrenren3: (SPN * not drunk enough)
Long, long day. Due to a malfunctioning ticket machine and a very rude member of staff, I'm now about to personally test the efficiency of the trains' complaint forms. Frankly I'm not expecting much, or anything at all, but I really needed some way to vent or I'd have gone postal on the man. I really didn't need that in my day. Anyway.

I FINALLY HAVE A SUBJECT FOR MY THESIS! I also have a professor who will follow my work, but I have no idea of what to call him in English. Meep.
For those who might be interested, it's about numerical methods for approximating multi-dimensional integrals. And it's a mouthful but it's really much easier than it sounds, I'm going to read a couple of books on the subject, summarize the main existing methods and then write a program to implement one or more of them. Meaning that yes, I went the applied maths way. Blasphemy, but pure mathematicians don't do well in the real world and I have no intention of staying in academia.

It didn't even take me much to decide on a subject, the professor I had an appointment with asked me if I already had something in mind and we went over everything covered during his course. I told him integrals and he said "you could study these methods a bit more in depth, maybe since the course was just about one-dimensional integrals study the methods for more dimensions?" and I said okay and I'm going back next week to get more info and books to read.

Since I was in the building already I tried to see the other professor whose exam I need to take this month or the next, but he wasn't around. And he still hasn't replied to my mails. I later learned that he's got a story of going MIA. Derp derp.
Classmate of mine who lives closer to uni will try to get a hold of him tomorrow morning when he's got classes.

And. In more exciting news. I had tea with Paola after this whole ordeal and it came out that she's planning to go to London for a month after graduation too! My plan was to stay for the 4-5 months between graduation and the start of autumn semester (May to September), get a temp job and all, and it'd be great to go together with the group of April graduates. Now that's some good motivation for me to get all exams and thesis done in time.
renrenren3: (SPN * not drunk enough)
Yesterday sucked beyond expectations. I got a mail at 11am telling me I had to be in my professor's office at 4pm to register my vote, so there went my afternoon. I had to move my student's lesson one hour earlier (it's weird to call him my student, he's more like my constant nuisance whose attention span is shorter than mine) but at least we're doing derivatives now so there's not much to explain, I just have to check that he's not making any mistakes in his exercises.

So at 3pm I hopped on the train, walked to the physics department, got lost in the physics department, found the office (on the 2nd floor, first door in the corridor, too bad I'd walked up to the far end by mistake and had to walk back), found a message taped to the office door saying "I'm in A107", walked down to ground floor to room A109 by mistake so I had to double back to A107... By the way, obviously A109 is on the far end of the corridor while A107 is right next to the entrance. I walked for about 20 minutes just to find my professor in the room next to the door I'd come in from. I was completely out of breath by then. His (nicer) colleague seemed worried I might collapse. And from the look on his face, I totally didn't need to come back and could have registered the vote last week. :/

Anyway, after this colossal waste of time I got home. I'd contacted about ten people to ask if they were interested in asking for an exam in November, and all the answers I got were negative. I asked anyway, figuring I've got nothing to lose, but until I get a reply I don't know what to study.

I also got a faculty-wide mail about doing a year-long internship in Japan that sounds awesome, but I don't think I have the qualifications. My grades are decent but not stellar and they only take about 3% of all applicants. I don't even have any English certification. (I kind of see my mum's point about them now, though I still think FCE is too low-level.) I still wish to look up who's in charge of applications for this internship and ask for more info, if only because my parents would go spare if I sent in an application.

And, to conclude, my brother broke my favourite mug. I probably shouldn't whine so much about it, but it was my mug and it had a cute cats pattern and I liked it. :(
renrenren3: (PW:AA * scientific Ema)
One more exam down! I also got the lowest score of my career so far, but it's physics so who cares, really. As long as I can move on to more interesting stuff now. There's some talk of a geometry exam around the end of November, so I suppose that's my next short-term goal. That exam's a bitch, I've failed the written part thrice already and it's just par for the course. And I just mailed my favourite prof and asked about doing my thesis with him. I've heard he's got lots of students already but I'm crossing my fingers since I really liked his course.

Hey, wasn't I supposed to be getting a break or something after this exam?

ETA: He said no. Damn, I should have asked him last month, a friend of mine asked and he still had time then. Moving on to plan B. But first I have to figure out who's plan B.
renrenren3: (DRRR!! * gif)
It's cold and damp and I've got a hell of a cold and probably a slight fever too, and I'm marathoning the first series of The Big Bang Theory and I'm laughing so much my throat hurts. A lot. But it was hurting already because of the cold so it's okay.
At least now I get why the guys in my year are so obsessed with it. Well, guys and girls. And one girl anyway. A subset of the guys in my year. Which includes at least one guy and at least one girl. Scary part is, we actually talk like that. Er.

Before getting sucked into this I also watched Merlin 3x06 and it was... okay, I suppose. Not memorable. I liked Elaine, though I don't get why she's the daughter of a lord and gets called princess while Vivian was the daughter of a king and was called lady. It makes no sense at all. Oh, and Vivian was prettier by far, but that's obvious.

I also feel compelled to add that I'm a mathematician, not a physicist. Or at least I'd be if I got my degree, which is not going to happen until I pass the damn physics exam, which might explain part of my resentment towards physicists. Though obviously mathematicians are superior to physicists. Everyone says so. Apart from the physicists, but they're just delusional. And the engineers probably disagree but their opinion doesn't amount to anything. And there's probably a lot of people who don't give a damn. But if you ask me, mathematicians are better.
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One exam down, five more to go. It's starting to look like the end, except there's still a couple more years to go so meh. And of course finishing college means I might be forced to accept that I'm an adult and move on with my life.

Wow, this sucks.

I've got about a week to prepare for the Cryptography exam (no kidding, and it's not quite as funny as it sounded at first) and all I want to do is sleep. I can't even sleep in August because I'll be studying Geometry and there's also the Algebra exam I botched up a couple of weeks ago. Urgh. Earlier today my brother mentioned that I have a weird sleeping schedule because he got up at 8am to pee and I was heading to breakfast. I kind of hate him. My sister too. They've taken over my sleeping schedule of going to sleep waaay past midnight and sleeping 'till midday.

Why can't I be a high school student again? Except for the part where high school sucked, of course. Speaking of high school, I'm stuck giving remedial math lessons to the only high schooler who likes to wake up early. First he said he'd rather meet in the morning, then he said 9am... GODDAMN MAN, I'M SLEEPY AT THAT TIME OF THE DAY! Give me a break... Last time he mentioned he saw an UFO too.

Why can't I have a normal student for once? First I had the girl who had problems with 2+2. Then the twins who were actually very studious and smart but had this tendency of asking two different things at the same time and get me confused. Now I have this guy who sees UFOs and likes to tell me about his life, which is all fine, but aren't you paying me to teach you math?

I swear I'm never getting a teaching job. It's fine doing this a couple of hours a week but I can't deal with people full-time.


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